A mess and half. Not fully though.

I deleted the last two post. It was ridiculously negative. I've been having a couple of bad weeks and just my luck, things are at boiling point. 

I went for a walk and a read earlier, had a thought about this blog. Realised that for the past year or so, I sound like a really screechy moany ghost. Ffs, I really have become incredibly bitter. 

But you know what I like about it? I've written as honestly as I could. In all that bitterness, I never lied about my selfish, self-degrading ways. When I go through the archives, I see a different person, in different years. As much as I say I've been the same person forever, I've gone from the ups to the downs. And I'm glad I can read and tell myself, what a loser I was, and maybe smile and think how stupid and immature I've been. 

I admit, I've been incredibly selfish how I've treated people I care about for the last year. Thankfully, they are people who've understood me completely and never judged me once. I'm glad to have this wonderful faithful people in my life. 

Anyway, I want to resume blogging like I used to. Taking the piss out of the most pointless things and sharing gems I stumble upon. Once or twice I've considered stop blogging, because there is hardly anyone who reads this. But it doesn't matter, this is a reminder to myself. 

A collection of my own stupid rants and pointless ramblings.